Life gave me a reason to live when she told me that i am not of her style…….!
*It was easy for her to say that i can’t be successful in life, had she ever thought about that when we used to chat at late nights…….!
*It was easy for her to say that her parents don’t want her to talk to me, had she ever cared about it when she called me at her home for studies.
*It was easy for her to say that my religion is different from her, had she ever thought about it when we became friends…..!
*It was easy for her to say that we can’t be in relationship, had she ever told me that in last 4 years.
I was just wandering around her in the hope that she will understand my feelings………..! It was all fault. I was such a moron that i kept on consoling myself that one day she will realise my love, that one day she will fight with the world for me, that one day we will be together away from this world…..! She crushed the 4 years of our friendship which i thought would have transformed into the best love story by a simple sentence that our status doesn’t match……!
We studied together from our 2nd standard. We were good friends. But i didn’t know at that time that this friendship will cost me my life’s precious time. We became best friends in our 9th standard when i started going to the tution where she was studying. Our bond of mutual understanding became strong. I helped her whenever she needed me. I was ready to do anything for her smile. I did everything she said. At that time we were the bestest friend. But that wasn’t enough.
Because of her i stoped giving time to my family. I stoped listening to my mom. I stoped obeying my dad. I stoped playing with my brother. At that time ny mobile was my life which helped me to be in touch with her. I was going away from this lively world. I forget to wish my mom on her birthday whereas i was the first to wish her on her birthday. I was not able to celebrate my parents marriage aniversary because she had given me some work…..!
With the passage of time i had become her puppet. To be with her i changed my tution to the centre where she had gone to study in our 10th standard. We used to sit near each other.
We used to chat during nights, while exams and in every situation. I started thinking that she will also start loving me but i was wrong. Whenever i proposed her, she had only one excuse that she will not go against her father’s promise. I respected her every decision.
But i only wanted her to see the world being in my shoes. In my senior secondary studies, i went away from her to purse my dreams. Mobile phones were not allowed in our hostel. But i never gave her a chance to realise that i am away from her. I will call her every weekend. When i used to come back home during holidays she used to be the first person whom i call. Sometimes when i call her from my hostel we used to do talk upto to an hour.
I completed my senior secondory. But i was not able to fulfill my dream. And now i think it was the only reason behind her change. I promised her that i will become an officer for her but i can’t. And this was my biggest mistake. During the interview never thought about my parents. And i think that’s the only reason why god didn’t help me to fulfill my dream.
She cleared some competitive exam and always kept on telling me to do something to settle in life. She told me that i am jealous of her. She told me that we are more than friends but she can’t be in relationship with a person like me.
This was my life’biggest lesson. I always treated girls with respect but she taught me that all are not same. Now i promise to myself that i will work hard day and night ………. Not to settle in life…… But to earn a status.
She gave me a lesson that following your dreams is useless. One must settle in life. But i will not stop following my dreams. Because i know i can achieve evrything with that. And if life’s only goal is to earn money and to get settle in life……. I don’t want to live that boring life.
And she taught me that love is wrong. But i would like to say that i will not stop loving others. Because love teaches us the lessons of life which i got. Love is never wrong. But a person with whom you love can be. So at last i would like to say her that she will regret her decission one day………….!
Happy boring life…..!
– Gautam Ghai